Reality

Trying to find my heart is hard. Really hard. I don't want to stop and really think about my life, my past etc.. I just want to barrel forward and keep busy b.c being quiet and trying to listen scares me. What if I don't hear anything? What if I do? Taking the time to find my heart is hard. What do I want to do with my life? How can I make a difference? I read something I liked. "Lord, show me who I am now, and who I can become - the person You had in mind when You created me."